Monday, April 27, 2015
what i was thinking prt 2
What I was thinking when I hit that woman. I was so angry at Tom and myself. I was angry at Jay. I was just full of emotions. My mind was blinded and I was driving. I needed to calm down. I thought that driving would calm me down. It was the worst decision of my life. I never thought that something like that would happen. I never thought that I would ever kill someone. I never thought that I could ever do it. I wanted her to be okay. I wanted her to live. I truly did. It is ashame that she died. It is just utterly awful. I keep trying to keep my head clear of the situation. I keep repeating the incident over and over again in my head. My mind keeps wishing I never stepped foot into that driver's seat. What will happen when they find out it was me? How will Tom feel? What will happen? My mind cannot cope with the situation. I remember driving down the road, extremely upset at what happened in town. It kept hovering my mind. Then out of nowhere here comes this woman, waving her arms. All i remember is hitting her. That sound. Jay's face. When he told me stop, I just wanted to drive away faster. My mind was racing. Drive. Drive. Drive. My mind was going crazy. I just wanted to be home. I just wanted to forget. Why couldn't I forget. Why did it happen? Why did I drive? Who was that woman? Why? Why? Why?
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Dear Daisy,
ReplyDeleteThat woman you hit with your car was me. Not only did you cause my death, but you also had a life I envied until the end of my days. You were publicly dating Tom, and not just his mistress. I was jealous of you since the day I found out Tom had a wife. It's not fair that you got to live with Tom in this beautiful home in East Egg and the whole time I was sitting here with my idiot of a husband George in the Valley of Ashes. I hate you. I hate you cause you killed me, and I hate you because you're alive and have a life I could have only dreamed of